Tuesday, September 25, 2007

I really don't wanna

I just started my period this morning with cramps and feeling awful. It's also rainy and dark out and I just feel drained and yucky. I don't wanna do anything. I don't wanna work out. I don't wanna think about my diet. I wanna go to McDonald's and Wal mart and get chocolate and eat crappy. I wanna have a drink so I can not feel these damn cramps. I just wanna have a day where I do nothing at all and just be irritable in my own little world.

PMS and periods have got to be the worst for diets and exercise. I have zero energy and just feel so drained that I don't even want to go for my walk this afternoon. Of course the rain doesn't exactly help with that. Walking in the rain sucks.

I know I havn't been keeping up very well with this blog. I am doing a lot of struggling with my diet right now. I'm glad at least I am forced to walk everyday and it helps me to stay focused on exercising. But the diet seems to come and go. I have good days and bad ones. Weekends tend to be harder to stay on track. Even on Saturday I did have some alcohol and it's been hard to stay fully sober in September. I do know that on the positive end of the things...I am not drinking like I was in the summer. I feel better about that aspect.

I really want to get some chocolate right now. I'm considering walking down to Wal mart later to get some. At least I'll be walking extra to get it so that burns some extra calories. Maybe I can find a chocolate type of treat which is not too fatty too. Even hot chocolate today would be nice with the colder rainy weather and period going on.

I need to keep focused on my goals. Only 5 more pounds to lose by my birthday and I can give myself a treat and celebrate on my first milestone on this diet. I'm at 195 and I'd love to get to 190 by Oct. 14th.

Only a few weeks til my birthday and Rasputins. I need to focus on that goal and how I know I can do it if I really put my mind to it and get back on track. Of course it would help for my period to be over and these cravings and awful feelings to go away first...

May the force be with you.

~padme amidala

6 comments:

good girl said...

I can relate! I also just started my period today and am feeling so tired and crampy, it just sucks.

Hot chocolate is a good idea for a little indulgence, not too fatty, but nice and chocolatey :-)

I know you can reach your goal!

histrazure said...

Hugs Padme hope you get to feeling better and good luck with reaching your goal you can do it hon

Kallisto said...

Well, at least it won't last forever! I hate being crampy, and for me, it sure doesn't help to exercise then, as that makes the cramps worse. Take care of yourself, take it easy, have a little treat! Just don't over-do, and you will be fine. Good luck!
Hugs,
Kallisto

Robin said...

If you are going to go for chocolate, go for the 70% plus cacoa type and you will find you can limit yourself to a small piece and it will satisfy your craving (without adding extra sugar). And it is totally hot chocolate weather - our summer sure disappeared quickly!

Southern Angel said...

Hi Padme :)
I guess we are all on our period right now! This period has been really tough and I am having a lot of bad cramping too. Try dark chocolate and savor it with tiny little bites. Or some tootsie rolls.

I think you are doing great with your walking and diet. You have just started and it can take a little while to really get into a good new routine. But you are doing great!

Big Hugs

padme amidala said...

Thank you good girl, kallisto, SA, Robin, and trazure for your comments. :) I did get some chocolate at wal mart today and it felt good to splurge a bit with it. The craving was just too strong. lol. :)
I did get some hot chocolate mix and hope to make some later tonight before bed.
BIG HUGS to everyone
padme amidala