Trying to keep motivated

I havn't blogged here in a few days and I wanted to force myself to write a post today. It's been a extremely long day and I didn't sleep well last night but I wanted to motivate myself to keep going. There will be rough days along the journey but I can't give up. Today I had the opposite problem than usual. Usually I eat when I am stressed out. Today I didn't want to eat at all. My tummy felt sick and I lost my appetite. Something happened which really upset me and made me feel ill. Master Anakin came home from work early and got us Subway to eat. He offered me the chance to have a drink tonight if I needed it. I admit I was really craving one today...so much stress going on and I like it as crutch. I havn't had a drop though despite that craving deep inside. I know that I am strong and I don't need it. I can get through my rough day and be strong.

I love that line "live, laugh, love". It reminds me what I should be doing...living and laughing more and loving.

I have weigh in coming up in a few days. I'm a little bit nervous but I know I've kept on track this week with my walking. I had to walk to the school this morning. I sure didn't want to but I had to. It's forced walking and helps me to stay on track with my goals.

I didn't get to see the Biggest Loser last night. I was at a Epicure Spice party and had a really good time. I did snack a bit on some chocolate brownies there but they were hard to resist. They were baked with the Epicure pure cocoa which is to die for! It's truly amazing...so chocolate like and good. :) I figured a treat wouldn't be bad though because I've been trying to be good on my diet lately.

I'm looking forward to a good night's sleep tonight. I feel like I really need it. I know it will help focus me and I'm hoping to get some work out done on the elliptical tommorow.

May the force be with you.

~padme amidala