Walking to lose weight

I have been trying to do lots of walking lately to lose some weight. I will walk instead of accept an offer of a ride. It helps me to stay focused on my exercise plan and make sure I am trying to stay on track. I put up a picture of the Stanley park seawall where I walked around recently. It was one of the longest walks I've done in a very long time! I don't think my legs hurt as much as they did that day and the day after. It was a deep burn in my leg muscles and I was glad to know that I worked them hard. Today I walked to the school in the morning and will be again in the afternoon. It helped to give me some energy and also keep me focused on my food choices better.

Sitting at home feeling sorry for myself just makes me crave crappy foods. I am an emotional eater and need to look out for that happening. I've been on the special k challenge so that's been my breakfast mostly and I've been eating a lot of lean cuisine's for lunch. I didn't realize til lately just how many different lean cuisine's there are out there. There is a yummy salmon one that was really good. Dinners have been mostly salmon or chicken or different yummy dishes. I do allow myself the occassional treat like on the weekend I treated myself to some appetizers and foods and drinks I normally don't have. Lately I have been having lots of different teas. Chamomile is wonderful for relaxing me. I will drink some in the bath.

I am finally down to my 180's! First time in a year that I am finally not in the 190's. Feels good to be finally getting more down towards my goal and feeling a bit more energy too. :)

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

New diet for my trip to Ontario

I am starting a new strict program from now until June when I go to see my friend, Shasta Gibson in Ontario. It's great motivation to get on the right track and lose a few pounds before I go. I'd also like to start getting ready for bathing suit season which is coming up. I always get more motivated for losing weight when the spring/summer hits.

I am at 191 pounds. Havn't really gone up or down lately. I know if I put more effort into it though that I can start to hopefully go down. I've been trying to walk more and also eating better and drinking lots of water. I also have been eating a lot more fish. We buy low fat salmon patty's at Costco and I love them. Wild Salmon is delicious and low in fat and high in protein. You can bbq them, grill them or bake them up. I've also been drinking more tea lately which is relaxing and good for the extra water and low cal. Green tea has always been my favorite but I also enjoy the loose tea also.

I will let you know how the diet is going and how my progress is going on my new diet and exercise program.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Havn't updated in a while

I know I've been bad and I havn't updated in quite a while. I have a hard enough time trying to keep up with two blogs. I am still on my diet and am doing pretty good on it despite my surgery and then weekend trip away and Easter time with all the chocolate. I am up to 191 but that's a one pound gain since my last post. I didn't walk to the school because my kids were on spring break but I'm back to that now and trying to watch what I eat more. I would really like to have more energy as I have been feeling very low with that lately. I think my walks will help a lot. I have no idea who is still reading this blog but I appreciate the comments and support very much. I really want to get back into writing here more. I have missed this place and it makes me focused on my goals and where I want to be at.

May the force be with you.

~padme amidala

Update

I havn't updated this blog in a long time. I had forgotten all about it to be honest. Keeping up with Journey to the Darkside is hard enough sometimes and now I've got another blog, The Fellatrix which I am going to be contributing to also soon. I am not sure who is still reading or checking this blog but I started this blog for myself and not for the readers.

I went through a very serious depression in December and my diet went out the window for a while. I did manage to lose a few pounds though the last two weeks. I've been trying to watch what I am eating more and get back to less snacking. The holidays were really bad for all the snacking and drinking I was doing. I'm glad they are over. I always find it easier to lose weight when it's January-June. I can't wait til the Spring when the weather gets warmer and I can get back to hiking and outside activities.

I am back to my walks today. I'm actually looking forward to getting back into it again and it helps me stay focused.

I am currently at 194 pounds. I was 198 when I started this blog. So that isn't too bad. I still havn't reached my goal of 190 though. I'd like to reach that first goal I set for myself back around my birthday. I know I can do it.

I did not make any weight loss new years resolutions this year. I just want to stay on track and lose those few extra pounds and get healthy again. I find when I make it a resolution than it doesn't last. I'd like to make this a lifestyle change.

May the force be with you all!

~padme amidala

Havn't updated for a while

I know I havn't updated here in a while. Mostly I've been struggling a lot with my SAD and just getting through the weather changes lately. I had Thanksgiving, my birthday and Halloween all in the same month which made it hard to stick to my diet. Thankfully I am still keeping up with my walking to and from the school so I didn't completely blow my weight and gain it all back from what I lost in September.

My weigh in on Sunday was the exact same weight I was before my period and right after my birthday...194. So no loss for me but also no gain. I think the walking keeps it balanced out during the periods of time I am not eating very well. The halloween candy has been very tempting and I am wanting hearty comfort foods to help cheer me up with the rainy cold weather lately. Yesterday I made the most delicious pasta dinner. mmmm....I know I have been trying to at least make healthy dinners for Master and I. It helps to have my 4 pm rule now so I can get in the kitchen and serve up something healthy and yummy.

November is typically the worst month for me with my eating. Christmas is around the corner and the weather gets so yucky and daylight savings time (which comes this Sunday) makes the days shorter and so dark. My SAD (seasonal affective disorder) goes crazy and I tend to stay inside as much as I can (not counting the walking which happens everyday unless it's really bad) and eat too much to help me stay comforted. Sometimes I miss going to the tanning booth as that did help me a lot during the SAD parts of the year with winter blues going on. Boy I miss spring and summer! Fall is wonderful too. I just hate winter! Cold, wet, rainy and lots of darkness.

My drinking has gotten a bit better although I still like to cut loose on the weekends. It gives me an escape and stress relief. I am glad for the rule of no drinking during the week as it keeps me focused and not doing it everyday.

I will try to update more and I really want to keep focused on my goals still. I know I can do it!

May the force be with you.

~padme amidala

Diet update

Weigh in was late this week due to Thanksgiving. I was not looking forward to going on the scale after all the turkey and trimmings. I knew I did not eat very good this weekend but it was a holiday and I have a hard time saying no to pumpkin pie with whipped cream or eating lots of turkey with gravy. I stepped on the scale today and it still says 194. So I didn't gain any but I didn't lose any either. I think my walking every day saved my butt on the scales. I am still walking to and from the school so I get exercise with that. I also think that drinking lots of the loose tea has been good for me. I'm not drinking as much alcohol anymore. Instead of a glass of merlot before bed I am having a cup of coconut black tea. I love it and it unwinds me without the extra calories or alcohol.

I did not get to my goal of 190 which I had for my birthday. My birthday is in a few days and I will not be dieting during my birthday weekend. It's too hard to diet and I am going out to eat at my favorite restaurant. I also plan to drink this weekend. I will eat clean until Saturday and then be back on Monday. I am only 4 pounds from my goal so I am going to keep on track and I know I can reach it if I don't give up.

It's been a hard journey but it's worth it and I am glad for this blog to be able to write out what's been happening. I need to post more here. I've been avoiding it lately because I knew my diet was not doing very well.

May the force be with you.

~padme amidala

One more pound

I did a weigh in this morning. My period is now over and my bloating has gone down. I am down one more pound! Yeah! I wish it was more but I know I havn't been eating well with my period week last week. I am down to 194. I've got 4 pounds to reach my goal for 190 by my birthday in two weeks. I'm a little worried I won't reach that goal in time. I am happy though that I am losing some weight and I am feeling sexier and better about my body.

I did some extra walking today by going to wal mart this morning. I will be walking this afternoon also to the school and back. I would like to do more elliptical trainer but I am not going to push myself too hard. I'm doing well on my diet today. My weekend really sucked with the diet but I figure I can get back on track for this week and hopefully lose a bit more than just one pound for weigh in next week.

May the force be with you.

~padme amidala